Forget-me-nots- Myosotis Myosotis is derived from the Greek word for "mouse's ear", due to the shape of the petals. It is a genus of flowering plants in the family Boraginaceae. In the northern hemisphere (i'm in scotland) they are commonly called forget-me-nots or scorpion grasses. This tiny blue wild flower is my favourite. I get excited every time I spot it actually. Ancient legend tells that a knight knelt down by a riverside to pick some out for his fiance and fell in (we'll blame the armour-not practical at all). He started to sink but managed to throw the bouquet to his love, calling to her not to forget him. Poor guy. The meaning of this flower, according to the Victorian Language of Flowers, is funnily enough, forget me not. A flower for remembrance. Not sure what that says about me, I'm not all that fussed about being remembered, I dont like attention. But then I do just pick them for myself; so lets have them be a wee reminder to take care of ourselves. To remember that in this great big world, full of great big problems, sometimes the best thing we can do is to take care of ourselves. Afterall if there were more happy, peaceful people on the earth, there would be less sadness and suffering. Joyful people are the key to world peace! Today I was out walking in the rain and it was actually quite lovely; I embraced it and decided to chant all the things I would like to change in the world- poverty, war, deforestation, cruelty, climate change etc.. Do you know what? I felt so much happier and lighter after it. Like I was releasing the burden of all the things I cant change. If I could help every wee being on this Earth, I would, but no one can. I feel so awful and inadequate because I cant help but that makes me sad too and we have established that happy people=happy world. So, Jenna (insert own name) LET IT GO. There's a great quote: You'll find that it is necessary to let things go, simply for the reason that they are heavy So release all your worries into the wind and let them be blown far away. They are not your concern anymore. You are now a free elf so off you skip and enjoy your days, you deserve it.
If only it was that easy; I often feel like my soul and my brain are arch enemies, they don't get along at all. My soul is a free living hippy that wants to dance barefoot through the world but my brain is a militant army officer that has so many rules and regulations that I must abide by. I think we all know who wins usually, but I wish my soul would shout louder and win my inner battle more often.I would love to go on holiday without my brain for a while, what a treat that would be! Hey, we all have to have challenges and my brain is mine so i'll take it and be grateful that I'm not in a real battle. On the topic of battles: the people of Syria are always in my thoughts these days, what a sad situation it is. So many people are coming together to help though so that's wonderful. Kind thoughts and prayers are powerful so send them in abundance. If you're feeling overwhelmed and sad: nature is the best medicine, get outside and breathe, feel the earth beneath your feet, we are truly blessed to live here. Lets remember that. A few weeks ago I discovered a magical place close to my house: a wild flower meadow. It’s a place of dreams. My flower-strewn dreams anyway. It’s been right under my nose for years and I didn't realise. I feel a royal fool; I missed the spring wildflowers. Damn. But I’ve found it now. Maybe I wasn’t supposed to find it then, maybe I was guided to it now because I needed the energy at this point in my life.
What point would that be? Well I’m a little, big bit, lost. I know I have a lot to give and a lot to do with my time on earth but for whatever reason, I'm stuck. I’ve lost myself, my joy, my passion and a lot of other vital aspects of life. Where did I lose them though? I've travelled the world, seen incredible sights, met wonderful people but it’s never felt enough. I've never felt enough rather. I find it hard to live in the developed world with all its silly problems when I’ve seen such beautiful people living desperately sad lives. The guilt and injustice has rendered me an anxious mess and I feel unable to move forward. I’ve taken some steps and had some moments of peace but very few. The very fact that I feel this way exasperates me- I’m so blessed and privileged, why can’t I just be grateful for what I have? Oh if I only had the answer. I actually think that modern life is a huge construct of lies but that’s a whole other story, not for today…Oh, I also have an eating disorder on top of all that joy so I’m sure you can imagine just how much fun it is in my head. It’s a battlefield. Back to the meadow; the first time I stumbled upon my little utopia, I got so carried away I ended up in, what can only be described as, a flower jungle. They were over my head and while I am only 5 foot 3 on a good day, that’s still pretty tall for flowers. I thought it rather poetic to be trapped in a flower jungle, humbling to crouch beneath their thorned stems. It felt right actually, to be dwarfed by nature. Like a living metaphor of life itself; we’re all tiny specks in a great big giant universe, transient and insignificant. Right? Mother Nature is my queen anyway, I’m but a servant in her mighty empire. The beauty of the natural world astounds me daily and it reminds me that there is something much bigger than me at work here. I don’t know what it is but I’m okay with that. Why should I know all the secrets? So ultimately, I think that the natural world holds the key to returning to myself, back to a functioning human being. Wouldn’t that be nice? I’m very drawn to flowers in particular so I believe that they are going to help me a lot. They already have. Flower power bro. That’s the wee piece of my journey I'd like to share right now. It may not be eloquently written but I hope to develop my writing as well as my soul with this blog. Let’s skip through petal strewn meadows together. I dare you to feel sad while doing that.... I AM A PART OF THE EARTH THEREFOR I BELONG |
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